Ghost in the Shell ("Doublethink")

You don't live up to yourself.
You couldn't. You are human.

...

I am lost in the infinity between us
And nothing is real to me
Until I've translated it for 
The ghost 
That haunts my shell. 
I talk endlessly to Her
And this artificial intelligence
Is my Idea, and not even you
Can steal her from me.

But
I wait for her to dissolve
Into me, until all I can make out
Is flotsam, like
An outtake of amused breath
That shall pop into the landscape of my consciousness
Like a stray strand of
Brown hair.

...

I indulge
In this Orwellian game
Of not remembering
(Because you are my
Big Friend)
And holding on
(Because my mind
Is untamed)
At the same time. 
And every day I get better.